Hey there Gentle Reader,
I received this email recently, and, well, it really touched me. May have tugged at my mean old heartstrings a little, dang it! Asked the writer for permission to share it, and she said yes, so yay! here you go:
Dear Ms Beginner,
I do really like your blog. It seems to me that there is someone out there to share my passion on ballet.
I find it really hard to do ballet properly as a 43 year old lady who did not have any chance
to do it when was young. I always like ballet and it was a year and a half ago I decided to join a local beginner ballet class for adult. All of my classmates have done a lot of ballet before. I work very hard and practise at home every day. I do have very good progress on the elements that I learn from the RAD DVDs. However I can’t even do simple waltz steps. I feel very embarrassing as people think I am always good at a lot of works. I think, trying to be the top of the class is my problem. I said to myself tonight while driving home after class I have to allow myself to fail.
I don’t get jealous of anybody who can do ballet better than me but I still feel sad whenever thinking of not doing ballet when i was young. I am also reluctant to ask my ballet teacher how he thinks my ballet is because I don’t want him to know I am very serious about my ballet.
But, I will still work hard for it. Hopefully one day I can be in pointe shoes and dance freely and beautifully as a ballerina.
Thank you so much for writing your blogs.
No, that’s not a tear welling up in my eye, it’s just very dry in here. Harumph.
But you see what I mean?
The part that really gets me is where she says she’s reluctant to ask her teacher because she doesn’t want him to know how serious she is about ballet.
Um, I totally feel ya on that one!
I mean, I’m working like heckbutt to improve, but I for sures don’t want Smirnoff to know that. Way easier to cope with my own ridiculousness by taking a happy-go-lucky approach to class. What if he laughed at my desire to be Good? Or pointed out that I am ridiculous? Not that he would, but I am, so what if?
Also, this reminds me that adult beginners are brave!
I don’t feel brave. But I read this letter and think, Dudes, this lady is brave. Learning a thing where you know it’ll be a long long time before you are as good as your classmates, and an even longer time -if ever- before you’ll be as good as the ideal in your head? That takes courage, man.
Also, waltz steps are hard.
Also, I like the way she uses the word free.
She hopes to dance freely.